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Title: Returning...
Post by: Nesiwepwawet on August 23, 2019, 07:39:30 pm
Em hotep :)

I wanted to introduce myself (or re-introduce, if there are any who remember me) to everyone. I've been dancing around making this post for days, I feel so awkward.

I am a returning member who joined the House 18 years ago, and I cannot even believe that number to be true some days, but it is. I had actually re-made my account here about 2 years ago and have been practicing again alone for those 2 years, but due to a variety of personal hang-ups, I never really could find it in me to begin posting again regularly or return fully to HoN. But there was something that drove me to do it this Summer, the driving force of my Father who is ... persistent, is the most positive word I can assign. But it wasn't until after I had requested to come back that I realized, days later, that the new year belonged to Wepwawet, so ... I think that explains a lot.

My name is Nesiwepwawet which means "Belonging to Wepwawet" (or "Of Wepwawet").  I've learned over time that when you're pronouncing my name, it's easier to say "Neh-SEE-oop-WAH-wet".

I joined the House in very late 2000 / early 2001. I was named in February of 2001 prior to my 19th birthday if I recall correctly. I attended the... 4th?... annual retreat in August of that same year (2001). I took my Shemsu-ankh vows, but I have decided to return as a Shemsu for now at this time, while I learn more about the new landscape of both faith and people that has vastly changed since I was here nearly two decades ago.

I live in the Vancouver-area of British Columbia (Canada), though when I joined I lived on Cape Breton Island in Nova Scotia, which is just about precisely on the opposite side of the continent / country.  I am non-binary, they/them is OK for me but they aren't my actual chosen pronouns, I just tire of having to explain my pronouns over and over again so I'm having a real they/them moment in life right now. Aside from Kemetic interests and practices, my interests include science fiction, playing musical instruments, and dogs (mine and other people's). I have mutliple mental health struggles and they are both my "demons" and yet I guess some of my proudest achievements (triumphing over them and learning to live in a world that wasn't designed for me).

And that's about it I guess.

 ;D

~ Nesi
Title: Re: Returning...
Post by: Tawa'ubast on August 23, 2019, 08:06:23 pm
Em Hotep Nesi! It's wonderful to meet you friend!
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Post by: Ankhetbast on August 23, 2019, 08:29:56 pm
Welcome back Nesi!  I look forward to getting reacquainted!
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Post by: Sedjosrysekhmet on August 23, 2019, 08:38:15 pm
Welcome back! its nice to meet you !
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Post by: Djehutyendy on August 23, 2019, 08:47:04 pm
Em hotep and welcome back, Nesi! It's wonderful to meet you. And I absolutely love your Shemsu name meaning <3
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Post by: Ma'atnofret on August 23, 2019, 08:56:06 pm
Em hotep and welcome back!
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Post by: Senuwierneheh on August 23, 2019, 09:02:05 pm
Em hotep and welcome back, Nesi!  May Wepwawet bless you in his year!

Senebty,
Neheh...
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Post by: Shaseni on August 23, 2019, 09:37:05 pm
Em hotep Nesi - welcome back! Just to say I'm a beginner here and I found your story inspiring. I hope our paths cross again soon!
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Post by: Tatuayinepu on August 23, 2019, 10:42:34 pm
Em hotep and a warm welcome back!
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Post by: Sonebiyinepu on August 23, 2019, 11:23:28 pm
Em hotep and welcome back!
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Post by: Tanebet on August 23, 2019, 11:36:37 pm
Em Htep and welcome back
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Post by: Taswauyinepu on August 24, 2019, 12:10:47 am
Em hotep, Nesi, and welcome back! What a year to return!
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Post by: Temimensenu on August 24, 2019, 05:43:50 am
Em hotep and welcome back!

Wonderful to meet you!
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Post by: Sarytsenuwi on August 24, 2019, 06:29:51 am
Em hotep, Nesi, and welcome back!
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Post by: Shezatwepwawet on August 24, 2019, 07:14:01 am
Em hotep and welcome back! Dua Wepwawet!
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Post by: Tjemsy on August 24, 2019, 08:19:18 am
Em hotep and welcome back! It's good to meet you. And dua Wepwawet! <3
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Post by: Khenneferitw on August 24, 2019, 11:49:42 am
Em hotep, sibling! It is nice to meet you.

We do currently run an informal trans/nonbinary/gender nonconforming discord for HoN members, should you want to join us there :) There is also a general fellowship server, separate from that.

The evolving landscape of the House is liminal, especially for us Jackal kids ;)
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Post by: Khenmetemnut on August 24, 2019, 04:20:44 pm
Em Hotep and Welcome (Back!)
Happy to have you!


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Post by: Sehedjef on August 24, 2019, 06:04:57 pm
Em hotep Nesi!  *henu*

Welcome back!  ^_^
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Post by: Sesaiaset on August 24, 2019, 10:40:53 pm
Em hotep, Nesi! Welcome back to the House 💙 And in Wepwawet's year, no less!

If you are comfortable sharing, do let us know what pronouns you like the best past they/them! I know plenty of people who use non-he/she/they pronouns, and it would be a pleasure to be able to refer to you in the way that would bring you the most comfort. (I used to use fae/faer myself and changed to they/them for very similar reasons as you describe, so I know how you feel.)
Title: Re: Returning...
Post by: Nesiwepwawet on August 25, 2019, 11:38:11 am
My pronouns were e("eee")/em/eir  ("E looked at emself in the mirror, and eir reflection looked back at em").

Which isn't a huge stretch from more mainstream pronouns, I wanted something other than 'they' to avoid people arguing that it was plural. But people had an unusually tough time wrapping their tongues around it for some reason, and I spent a LOT of time explaining the Spivak pronouns, more time than I would have explaining that 'they' can be singular.

So I went back to they/them/their so people wouldn't hurt their brain  :o ::)

I'm also very very laid back about pronouns, if someone calls me she/her, I typically won't mention my actual pronouns more than once and if it's a total-stranger situation, I'll probably not even do that. I don't like conflict.
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Post by: Atefwepwawet on August 26, 2019, 10:02:34 am
Welcome back, fellow Wepwawet kid! Definitely a great year to return. :D
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Post by: Asetmehheri on August 26, 2019, 01:25:30 pm
Em hotep, Nesi! We're in the same time zone! (I'm in Yukon). You def picked the best year. :D
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Post by: Nedjuwy on August 26, 2019, 02:36:11 pm
Welcome back❤
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Post by: Yinepuemsaes on August 26, 2019, 03:21:36 pm
Em hotep, and welcome back!
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Post by: Nysenu on August 26, 2019, 09:26:00 pm
Em hotep and welcome back, Nesi! What a great year to return! I hope Wepwawet brings you many blessings!
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Post by: Asetmehheri on August 27, 2019, 10:55:20 am
Very cool pronouns, Nesi. Thank you for explaining.
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Post by: Djedetmiwesir on August 27, 2019, 12:08:32 pm
Em hotep!

Hey Nesi! Long time no see!  We Shemsu-Ankhed together all those years ago. I hope you feel fulfilled and loved in your return.
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Post by: GoldieLove on August 27, 2019, 04:02:53 pm
Em Hotep!

Welcome back. I, too, am a Beginner, who finds your story very compelling.

Senebty,
Goldie.
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Post by: KhaiPtah on August 28, 2019, 11:02:34 am
Hotep Nesi (henu)

Yayyy welcome back. It is wonderful to see you again. Yes it was the 4th retreat. I was the first for Djedet and I too.

Senebty and love

Khai
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Post by: Nesiwepwawet on August 28, 2019, 07:36:26 pm
Thank you for the warm welcome-back everyone!

Em hotep!

Hey Nesi! Long time no see!  We Shemsu-Ankhed together all those years ago. I hope you feel fulfilled and loved in your return.

Hiiii :) I do feel fulfilled, more so than I have in a long time.

Em Hotep!

Welcome back. I, too, am a Beginner, who finds your story very compelling.

Senebty,
Goldie.

Welcome to you, as well :) I'm glad to hear people are able to take something positive away from my story!

To me, my entire journey has been a true testament to how a Father stands by his daughter in all things and how no matter how far you run and how lost you think you are, your Parent(s) will always be there, waiting.

I will tell you, there is nothing more fierce than Wepwawet's love for and His protection of me, and it's something I've felt even as I went on "my own path", "all by myself", thinking I was going "without Him". But in reality, He was never very far. I tried other religions, too. What led me to leave the Kemetic faith/practice in the beginning, it was all very complicated and didn't happen over night, but I still longed for that 'practice' I had once knew that felt 'right' to me more times than not, and I thought I would find it somewhere else. And looking back, it's kind of clear, I knew He was still there -- the whole time! -- but I didn't want to admit it. When I tried one 'path' on my own, He said "Well, if you think that helps," and I like an impudent child basically told him to get lost. His response was to laugh, shake His head, and wait.

Each thing I tried, it was there: "Well, if you think that will help!" -- I'm fairly positive He had a great time making fun of me on more than one occasion which is totally up His alley  ::) And each time, I subconsciously or even consciously told him to "get lost". That I had this figured out, all by myself, and my new path was 'way better' than anything I ever had in the past.  :-X

Why? It's hard to assign what I did to any "one" reason. I admit I've been a short-sighted confused little girl at times, but it's also much more complicated than that. I had a lot of struggles in my life, from my mental health issues to my living situation, my physical security in life, abuse I've suffered at the hands of various people, to just plain old bad rolls of the dice in life. Life was not easy for me at any stage of the game so far, and I think for a very long time I used that as an excuse to turn on Him.

But He waited. And waited. and waited!

And one day a couple of years back, I finally started to return my focus to Him. And do you know what he told me?

"Well. If you think that will help."  And I knew, He was definitely still making fun of me   ::)

He thinks its funny even now when I'm telling this story, and He will probably never let me truly live it down, in a jovial manner.  But in all serious matters, I was accepted back as if I had never left, and that's what I will always remember about this journey: There is no where I can turn where I will ever be alone.

So I hope that story is inspiring for someone out there!

Hotep Nesi (henu)

Yayyy welcome back. It is wonderful to see you again. Yes it was the 4th retreat. I was the first for Djedet and I too.

Senebty and love

Khai

Khai! Helloooo :)
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Post by: Setjezusenu on August 28, 2019, 08:18:06 pm
Welcome! It's nice to see someone else with connections to the Maritimes. I also feel you on the pronouns - correcting people can be super hard.

I hope you have a good experience returning here, and that you found or learned what you needed in your time away.
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Post by: Teritui on August 30, 2019, 01:15:42 pm
Your story is truly touching. Thank you for sharing it.
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Post by: Sehedjef on August 31, 2019, 03:45:46 pm
Em hotep Nesi and welcome back!  ^_^

Senebty,
Sehedjef
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Post by: NeferuHethert on September 06, 2019, 08:33:34 pm
Em hotep, Nesi!
I remember you from that Retreat so long ago, so it's great to see you again. Dua Wepwawet! 

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Post by: Padjaiemweru on September 14, 2019, 11:15:37 am
Welcome back! (sorry for not responding earlier)!!!