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[PUBLIC] Prayer Requests / Re: Prayers for my son, guidance for me
« on: April 11, 2017, 08:31:01 pm »
Starting parenting classes tomorrow. Before now, getting anyone to return calls was next to impossible, and even when they did they never had spaces open. Extremely happy that there were no issues this time. They even said its extremely rare to have an open spot immediately available
 and that I'm very lucky! :)

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[PUBLIC] Prayer Requests / Re: Prayers for my son, guidance for me
« on: April 11, 2017, 12:27:57 am »
Thank you very much everyone.

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[PUBLIC] Prayer Requests / Re: Prayers for my son, guidance for me
« on: April 08, 2017, 09:48:02 pm »
Thank you everyone. Sekhmet is always my go to. I think Set and Djehuty could also help me a great deal. Wepwawet isn't even a name that occurred to me but I will definitely speak with. And thank you also for names to offer a listening ear. They could help me a lot with my emotions through this rough time. I really appreciate everyone.

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[PUBLIC] Prayer Requests / Prayers for my son, guidance for me
« on: April 08, 2017, 01:25:07 am »
So I lost custody of my son when he was six months old due to my mental health and false allegations. He's now almost 3 and I remain an active part of his life and am also stable.

His dad originally had custody, who decided he didn't want him and ditched him on his mother, then took him back, then decided it was to much and ditched him on my parents shortly after his second birthday.

My mother isn't healthy but my husband and I thought everything was fine regarding my son's habitation there. Today I learned some troubling news. My mother has gotten my son kicked out of his daycare because of her behavior - verbally assaulting the workers on a regular basis, screaming bloody murder at them, slandering them for their race, heritage, native tongue, and religion. All in front of my son. As far as I know, she has not turned her vileness on him yet.

His life has been hard and it only seems to get harder. He's very impressionable and already very angry because of the unstable life he's had. I would much appreciate prayers for him. For his protection in body and mind, and so he doesn't learn my mothers behavior as right.

This has given my husband and I the final push to try and fight for custody, but it's such a long, exhausting process and it feels every time we've started before, we were tired before we'd begun. We want him to have a stable, loving home. So I guess we could use the prayers too. But also I would like guidance as to what Netjer to look to for help in this battle. To give me strength as this fight wears me down. I don't want to give up this time around, and I would like to know who to connect with to help me persevere.

Sekhmet is who I usually turn to for courage and strength, but I feel I need more than that for this. When my husband and I pursue this, and carry through with it, it's going to turn nasty. My mother is full of maliciousness and likes to manipulate and pull out all the tricks, nor is afraid of using verbal OR physical abuse. My father has no issue lying to police or child services on her behalf. This is what breaks me down the quickest. I need to step in before my son's situation gets worse and I would love to know who to look to for help because this is going to be a long, ugly, trying battle..

Thank you in advance.

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[PUBLIC] Netjer (Our Gods & Goddesses) / Re: Regarding Pregnancy
« on: February 19, 2014, 10:55:23 am »
Thank you everyone.

[PUBLIC] Netjer (Our Gods & Goddesses) / Regarding Pregnancy
« on: February 17, 2014, 03:05:16 pm »
I found out that I'm pregnant and have been wondering who would be appropriate to pray to regarding the pregnancy. Given that it has been a very hard pregnancy so far and I've been so sickly (been to the ER twice), I felt more urgency to do so. Today I also found out I may be carrying a second, younger fetus. I am very concerned for my welfare as well as for the welfare of the unborn.

[PUBLIC] Kemetic Orthodox Q&A / Re: Question about Family
« on: September 23, 2013, 10:56:06 pm »
Thank you again everyone for your input.

Tahai, I actually planned on trying that first. I already do this with one of my aunts, who I've learned rather not have anything to do with me than to treat me as a person. I plan on not relying on any of my family for any assistance and stopped accepting most gifts about 2 years ago for the reason that they use everything I get from them as leverage.

I hold nothing against my dad, I know its not his fault and that he's just trying to make things easier on himself. I am afraid how things are going to get for him after I leave though.

I currently don't have my own transportation (mom made sure I didn't ever learn to drive) and it'll be awhile til I do have my own, but I'm never invited to family outings anyway. If ever I am, I wouldn't go unless I knew for a fact that I could leave on my own if need be.

There are a few things I do like about my mom, and when she's giving me an especially hard time I tend to count those to keep myself from getting into a big messy fight with her.

I know not to let my biological father back into my life. I do admit that the thought often crosses my mind, but that's because, despite what he has done to me, he has always treated me with more fairness than the rest of the family and is one of the very few that treats me like an actual person. He also taught me a few things that kept me safe in the later years of school that I will be passing on to my children. But the bad does outweigh any good he has ever done me and I don't trust having him in my life safely.

I do meditate and practice yoga and that helps a lot with the daily stress. I tried recently getting therapy, but the place I went to gave me a number to call, who gave me another number, who gave me another number. I don't play the 'pass around' game very well, so I decided to hold off on that for a bit more.

And as a final note, I do love myself. I learned how to love and respect myself with the help of a very devoted and patient boyfriend. He spent the first two years of our relationship finding out all of my secrets and problems, establishing an strong, open communication, getting to know my best friend (the one who lives with me), and helping me get through the toughest crap and teaching me I wasn't the worthless, useless trash my family kept telling me I was. He's over 2,000 miles away and still calls me at LEAST twice a day and my best friend once a day, and checks in with her fiance every couple of weeks. He really is a sweetheart and I love him dearly. His family is also very sweet and are always inviting me to holiday gatherings or on family trips.

[PUBLIC] Kemetic Orthodox Q&A / Re: Question about Family
« on: September 12, 2013, 09:36:29 pm »
Thank you all for your input. Honestly, I'm quite happy to hear that I don't have to try and manage being with them. My friend and I are planning on moving out at the first of October. Hopefully I can go ahead with cutting ties soon after.

[PUBLIC] Kemetic Orthodox Q&A / Question about Family
« on: September 11, 2013, 10:36:09 pm »
So I've noticed that KO holds family as being very important. While I find this a wonderful thing, I'm curious how toxic family members are handled.

Most of the family on my mom's (biological aunt's) side of the family is toxic.

My mom is quite focused on herself and her image. Everything has to be her way or make her look good. If ever I didn't make straight 100's in school, I was screamed and cursed at and she would often pull the "I /saved/ you! If it wasn't for me you'd be dead in a ditch somewhere," card and use that to try and tell me to make better grades or do something better because I 'owed' her. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for her taking me in from my biological father (her brother), but she pulls that card every chance she gets. She tells me I need to get a high paying, fancy job like as a lawyer or doctor so that she doesn't have to be ashamed of me. Currently, I'm working part time at a job and all of my managers say I'm doing wonderful, but every chance she gets, she tells me I don't do good enough at my job and I'm never going to accomplish anything in my life and how ashamed she is to tell anyone I'm her daughter.

She's like this with other people too. When my dad asks her a question, 9 times out of 10 she yells at him and asks him if he's stupid. If he tries to help with any task, she yells at him and says she doesn't need his help, then when he turns around to leave her to it, she yells at him for not helping her and being useless. She goes to her sisters to talk badly and start rumors about other sisters or other family. She has often told the family that I was a prostitute or doing drugs. She tried to tell my best friend (who recently moved in with us on my mom's insistence) that I was sleeping with her fiance. She tells this friend of mine that she's useless and ignorant and lazy, despite the fact that she's not only working as well, but does all the dishes, laundry, and half the cleaning of the entire house, I doing the other half.

Two of my other aunt's are pretty self absorbed as well. One is much like my mom though she has grabbed me by the throat and shaken me for speaking up against such treatment, which my mom has never done. Then she called my mom and told her how /I/ had attacked /her/ and had given her nothing but trouble. We haven't talked much since and have seen even less of each other. The other is currently not in touch with the rest of the family because she couldn't stand being treated any less then better than the rest of the family, threw a major, violent fit about it and hasn't spoken to anyone since.

My third aunt is very prejudice and racist, more so then the rest of my family. All she ever talks about is hate for everyone that isn't white, upper-middle class folks. The things she says is  horribly disturbing and is all of what she focuses on.

My biological father, who my aunt took custody of me from, is an alcoholic, a drug addict, jobless, homeless, and sexually abused me from around 2 - 5 years old. He can't be bothered with how old I am, if I'm graduated from school or not, what my birthday is, or anything honestly about me, but often calls me telling me I need to move and let him live with me as soon as I get the chance. He started with those phone calls when i was in middle school.

My dad is okay, but if I cut ties with mom, he'll cut ties with me. While he has defended me in mom's and my previous 'spats', he refuses to have anything to do with me if I won't include mom and the rest of her family.

As for my biological mother's side... I don't know much. Mom had been telling me for years that my mother's mom was a horrible, vile woman that never loved me or my mother. That her side of the family was abusive. That they never sent me things and that it would be a mistake to get in touch with that side of the family. A little while back, my maternal grandmother DID contact me, and I decided to keep that open. She told me she had been trying to find me for awhile. She said when mom first got custody of me (a little before i was 6), she sent me a locket with a picture of my mother in it as well as a baby blanket and a stuffed animal I had when i was younger. Also, I was informed to have two siblings. Mom told me I had many, sometimes say 7, 8, 10, or larger numbers, or saying all her children were fathered by 8 or so different men. when I asked grandma about mom, who is deceased, she told me all about her, from all of her likes and dislikes, to habits and hobbies, to her looks, to her 'flaw' (schizophrenia), but every word was filled with love. She spoke just as lovingly about her other children and all her grandchildren. This of course makes me think my mom has been lying about this as well...

So would it be appropriate to cut ties with my mom's family? Or should I somehow try and make things manageable? If I cut ties, while I have some communication with my maternal grandmother, I pretty much would be left without a family. These are the people I grew up around and more or less 'raised' me. So would I still have a duty to them, or would my decision to cut them out of my life be better?

[PUBLIC] Welcome! / Re: Hello!
« on: August 16, 2013, 07:18:48 pm »
Thank you all very much!

[PUBLIC] Welcome! / Hello!
« on: August 16, 2013, 12:10:25 am »
Hello, I'm Tippy, or Sacha if you prefer.

I was accepted to the forums a few months back but never introduced myself as my life had suddenly gotten hectic. I was hoping to wait until everything calmed down before introducing myself here, but that hasn't gone according to plan. So now seems as good a time as any!

When it comes to forums, I'm pretty quiet - read lots, say little. With how things are going for me currently, I'm going to be even more quiet 'til things start to settle. But I do have questions and hope to get those answered here at some point.

As for how I came to want to study and practice kemeticism... Bast has seemed to be pulling me in this direction since childhood, and while I wanted to, I had been told this was wrong and had since been doing my best to ignore her. It was over a year and a half ago that I started to listen to her a little, but still was very stubborn with it. It wasn't until Sekhmet got involved in my fight with anorexia that I decided maybe this is in fact the right path and maybe I should try harder to listen instead of ignore.

I'm hoping that being here can help me learn more about this faith and the gods and see if this is in fact the right path for me.

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