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[PUBLIC] Welcome! / Coming Home.
« on: December 11, 2018, 02:03:13 am »
I haven't been here in a long while.  I haven't been in touch with my faith and spirituality in about two years - since my mom died.  I've lost touch with a lot of things that were once important to me.  A recent hospitalization for my mental health has pushed me to really evaluate what I'm doing and how I'm doing it.  I've made slow changes since October, and in the last week, I've felt this push at the back of my mind.  I haven't honestly thought about KO in quite some time, aside from some internal dialogue with my Father.  I didn't celebrate the the new year, and I haven't spent time in my shrine.  But Someone clearly wants me to fix this.  I'm not sure Who it is, but I intend to find out. 

Point is... I'm here, and I'm working on taking my life back, one step at a time.

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[PUBLIC] Kemetic Orthodox Q&A / Am I alone?
« on: July 31, 2011, 12:03:39 am »
I'm a little afraid to ask about this, because I'm afraid of the answer I suppose.  However, it's been on my mind increasingly as I browse through the threads here and read old posts.

Basically, what I want to know is, do I not belong here if I don't feel that I've ever been approached by a Neteru?  

I've spent so much of my life not believing in any god, in any spirituality - mostly because I felt that They or He or Whomever did not care at all about me.  I'll be honest - it's not as though I was just a whiny teenager who didn't get her way all the time - my father abused me my whole life.  Time and time again as I was growing up I prayed and hoped for change, hoped to be saved.  My mom and my Christianity always taught me that God only put as much on us as we could bear, and eventually I got fed up with that answer.  I felt it was too much, and I turned away from faith, from hope, from any belief in a spiritual being who would hear me.  

I'm afraid that doing so has cut me off, and that I don't belong here.  Every time I try to relax and let my mind go to see if Someone would try to reach me, all I hear is this voice inside my head telling me that even if They were there, They wouldn't care about me anyways, because I never cared about Them.  

Everyone here seems to have had interactions with their Parent(s) and Beloved(s) long before coming here.  Am I just the odd one out because I shut myself off from hearing Anyone at all?  Or does it mean that this just isn't where I belong?

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[PUBLIC] Welcome! / Another newbie.
« on: July 29, 2011, 01:17:47 pm »
I've been debating nearly all day and night on what to say when I make my first post here. I actually even dreamed about it, and I got all flustered trying to come up with good answers to questions from an unseen interrogator.  

I've been lurking here and on the House of Netjer forums for a couple weeks now, too shy to make an account before I find out if I've been accepted to the Beginner's class for the House.  I only just applied this past week though, and I'm guessing I won't find out for a couple more weeks, so I decided to just buckle down and make myself known here.  I hope that's alright.  :x

I've been an avid Egyptian fan since I was a young child - I have a collection of various gods and goddesses in statue form.  For the longest time, even as a young girl, my room was pretty much a shrine to Ancient Egypt.  My favorite book when I was a kid was called The Egypt Game.  

Until now, I've never really thought about practicing an Egyptian based faith, and have never heard of Kemetic Orthdox.  I always thought the religion was neat and interesting, but didn't know that someone had actually made it a reality for people in this time period.  

I spent the first half of my life being a practicing Christian, and then having no faith at all.  A lot of things have gone wrong in my life, and eventually I got so downtrodden that I found it hard to have faith in anything, and I gave up on religion.  

As I got older, I started wanting to have hope and faith again, and a place to spiritually call home so I began researching various religions.  I've taken a few college courses and have learned quite a bit.  I find nearly all of them to be very respectable and most of their core tenets are very similar.  However, each time I tried to really get myself interested in anything that seemed decent and comparable to what I believe, something wouldn't feel right, for various reasons.

When my friend Meket told me about her Kemetic Orthodox practice, I started looking it up and found myself totally entranced.  It's based on something I've always been fascinated with, and nothing that I've read so far about the community and the belief system has made me want to turn away.  Even after the four days of suggested reflection, my resolve to be here has not wavered.  I'm very excited to get involved and hopefully become one of the community.

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