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[PRIVATE] Q&A / Re: Your First Senut
« on: August 28, 2020, 02:11:40 pm »
My first time was very awkward and full of fumbles. I scrambled, I rambled, I apologised  :P
I'm a stickler for details, and that can get in the way of my experiences. I wasn't sure if I'd purified myself and my shrine items correctly, I didn't light my charcoal thoroughly enough so my incense didn't burn as long as I needed it to, I forgot to bring an offering (I grabbed some chocolate on the fly), and the whole thing left me pretty embarrassed.

The second and third days have gone much better. I agree that I do feel differently after the ritual bath, and that it's hard to describe.

I've offered Scotch and chocolate again after my intuition prompted both. I feel a general sense of peace rather than embarrassment, so that's nice! 😂

« on: August 26, 2020, 02:51:17 pm »
This is my first beginner's Senut shrine! Everything is locally sourced, even the box. The box is an antique electrician's toolbox from an Ontario company that no longer exists. The two bowls were made by a potter who lives about 40 minutes from me. The incense burner, candle, and holder come from a Winnipeg Etsy shop. The resin incense I'm using is a Thunder Bay man's take on kapet, which I was happy to find c:

[PRIVATE] Q&A / Re: Specific gods for a dedication
« on: August 19, 2020, 07:36:03 am »
Makes sense! Thanks!

[PRIVATE] Q&A / Specific gods for a dedication
« on: August 17, 2020, 10:29:11 am »
I would like to start incorporating prayers and offerings into my daily routine. Prayers from the Ancient Egyptian Prayerbook have been really helpful and inspiring!
I am a weight lifter and a general fitness enthusiast. I work out every day, and I also enjoy amateur mixed wrestling (I specifically do informal Graeco-Roman grappling, BJJ, and Judo). I would love to offer my daily weight training to the Netjeru, but I don't know who would be most appropriate. Or, is this something I should wait to complete my beginner's class for so that I don't focus on this Netjer(u) accidentally?

[PRIVATE] Q&A / Re: How did everyone end up here?
« on: August 15, 2020, 09:50:08 am »
My parents are Anglican and Catholic respectively, but chose to raise me secular so that I could choose my own religion. They did have me baptized Anglican as a baby and I did attend some Catholic masses when I was very young, but that was it. I was intensely sceptical even as a kid, and eventually claimed atheism. I felt like I was missing something though, so I explored spiritual paths that don't involve divinity.

This had the impact of broadening my world view and opening my mind to the possibility of the divine, so I buckled down and researched many world religions. I felt a connection with Hanuman from the many Hindu faiths, but I was too conflicted having a recent ancestry of individuals who were very involved in the colonial oppression of Southeast Asia. It seemed inappropriate and disrespectful to the Desi peoples for me to be involved with Hinduism for that reason. This however opened me up to the possibility of polytheisms, and I began to explore modern polytheist paths. I eventually had a dream about Set, which was significant because I very rarely remember dreams. That day we had a pretty fierce thunderstorm roll in, and I had a moment of about five minutes where I feel like I genuinely spoke with Set and recieved answers through the thunder. This shook me, and I didn't know what to do about it. I mostly believed I was imagining things, but I researched modern Ancient Egyptian religions and found Kemetic Orthodoxy. I was a minor at the time and didn't feel comfortable approaching my parents to go over my spiritual journey just yet, so I didn't apply to the beginner's class. I crave structure and guidance, so I didn't wish to pursue solitary practice, and I ended up putting my Kemetic calling aside.

Fast forward to college. I found myself exploring Judaism, which I never anticipated. Judaism gave me community, theological debate, constant study, and structure. I never converted so I was never Jewish, but Judaism was the first religion I felt comfortable in. From 22 to 28 I was loosely Jewish-adjacent, but the fact that in all that time I did not convert should have been a sign. It wasn't, and life got ahead of me. I found a partner, we found a home, I started my careers, I found my social networks, and I felt successful. At 28 I felt like I knew myself and that there would be no more surprises. Wrong.

I felt a pull towards re-exploring the modern take on ancient paths, and so I tried to feel a connection to Heathenry. Considering the fact that my ancestors would have been worshipers of the Norse/Germanic gods, I thought surely I would feel something. I didn't, and I was disturbed by the amount of white supremacist and fascist pockets of the community, especially locally! The Heathen community is amazing and works very hard to oust these people, but combined with the fact that I just didn't vibe with the theology or the gods I knew it wasn't for me.
Re-enter Kemetic Orthodoxy. A lightbulb went off, or rather, I was smacked with what had always been there. My first real calling had never left, it was just waiting for me to find myself first.

So, here I am :]

[PRIVATE] Q&A / Re: Natron
« on: August 14, 2020, 07:49:50 pm »
I made some today for the first time and have some tips based on my experience. You definitely want a DEEP saucepan, because it fizzes everywhere 😂. Easy to clean up, but if you have a smaller space it might be a pain. When it really gets going it froths up and falls a few times, which is another good reason for a deep pan.

When it comes to the baking sheet, I made the mistake of using a 9x9 which was way too small and the natron took all day to dry out, haha. I should have used a long sheet and spread it much more thinly.

[PRIVATE] Q&A / Re: Pronunciations
« on: August 14, 2020, 10:33:26 am »
I recently purchased the Egyptian Prayerbook for class and personal use, and it has a pronunciation guide that lists Yinepu as 'yi-NUHP-oo.' So I was never exactly on the mark, but at least that's been put to bed!

[PRIVATE] Q&A / Pronunciations
« on: August 10, 2020, 08:59:56 am »
There are some pronunciation guides out there, but there are some language blips I'm still stuck on. The biggest being how to pronounce Yinepu! I realise this name carries its own baggage with some tug of war over Yinepu/Anpu/Anup, but I'm most concerned with how Yinepu is said. Is it Yin-AH-pu, YIN-e-pu... In-ai-bu? None of the above? If someone in the know could help me out, you'd be answering a many years old question 😅

If other beginners have other pronunciation questions, ask them here!

[PRIVATE] Q&A / Re: Spending time with the Netjer
« on: August 08, 2020, 04:30:22 pm »
So meditation and doing things in a group setting appears to fill that feeling of not having a godphone! I have been trying to meditate but my brain just gets so distracted. I'm sure it just takes practice though! Would either of you be willing to talk about your personal ways of meditating? I'd love to see if maybe there's another way I haven't tried that would help me feel that connection with the divine. Maybe it would be helpful to follow the thoughts as they come up and see if I can find traces of the divine in them for example?

I usually guide myself through a planned meditation, from ten to thirty minutes. I relax myself by getting very comfy, closing my eyes, and counting backwards from ten slowly. Sometimes I'll put soothing instrumental music on, unless I'm outside. As I mentally count backwards, I visualise myself getting farther away from my body and further towards what I'm trying to connect with. I also calm my breathing. If distractions happen, I acknowledge them and then mentally tell them I'll come back to them before proceeding.
I usually meditate on forces of nature, feelings, and life's obstacles rather than directly on divinity. I've never tried to meditate on individual Netjeru, but I don't see why you couldn't. Sitting outside, meditating on the breeze, rustling leaves, the sun's warmth, the rushing river-- those are the big focus points that usually lead me to feeling a sense of the divine.

That's just me though, and Tanebet made some really great points about individual experience.

[PRIVATE] Q&A / Re: Spending time with the Netjer
« on: August 07, 2020, 09:21:21 am »
I imagine this will at least sorta be covered when we talk about senut and rituals. I'm someone who really doesn't possess a god phone nor any kind of spiritual sensitivity. I was a skeptic and an atheist growing up exactly because I'm pretty cut off from everything that isn't visible. In past explorations with spirituality, I've found meditation really helpful to get a "feeling" or mental images that give me some indication of divinity. Nature walks and immersing myself in natural wonders; things I can see, hear, feel-- While letting myself be mentally open-- Also help me feel connected to divinity.  Group worship or group activities also allow me to feel that connection.
I will admit that my skepticism remains because I could obviously be fooling myself into feeling/thinking connection, but that's where faith and spiritual reasoning come into play for me.

I'm really hopeful that senut will allow me to access Netjer in a way that feels more... Outside of myself, if that makes sense?

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