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From the Husia, by Maulana Karenga; The Book of Ani, XV:

"Answer not elders who are angry. Let them have their way. Speak sweetly when they speak bitterly. For it is a remedy that soothes the heart. Contentious answers provoke strife and eventually your will, will be broken. let not your heart be troubled, for they will soon return to praise you when their hour of rage has passed. When your words please the heart, the heart is inclined to accept them. Seek self mastery then and your self mastery will subdue them."

This one is interesting to me. The last sentence in the chapter, seems to be the pre requisite to successfully navigating the preceding sentences' situation, yet, the lesson comes at the end.

In this chapter specifically, the emphasis is on self mastery first, which in turn allows one to "subdue" those that are angry and lashing out. So often people think that the opposite way is the only way, and attempt to control others but do a bad job at it. They attempt to persuade instead of listen, and to "correct" the person that is angry.

I've seen this happen in my own life. When I am calm, I am able to stand in a non defensive, yet alert, manner. I can keep silent and in control. It doesn't take long for the other person who is not in control to realize I'm not dancing with them, and the wind goes out of their sails.

On the other hand, I've also made the other mistake of defending myself and trying to correct the other person. That usually doesn't get me anywhere.

 Every situation is different, so discernment and self control are important. Using words effectively, for the situation at hand, comes from being in control of emotions. Knowing how to control emotions while dealing with angry people comes from self mastery.

So much, comes from self mastery. The right response, the right words, at the right time, in the right measure. The goal, if I'm reading Ani's words correctly, is this. He doesn't attempt to control the person, instead he advises controlling one's self, which in turn can possibly defuse the situation and allows the self mastered person the opportunity to retain their own self respect...and open the door for the person that they are dealing with to regain theirs. Allowing someone to "save face" and recognizing their dignity even when they are making a fool of themselves, is a gift. It also is a part of upholding Ma'at, and something we strive for as children of Netjer.

Emphasis is placed on the importance of good speech in the chapter by Ani, a common denominator I've seen in the majority of wisdom texts in AE. That shows me how highly it was valued by the Ancient Egyptians, and how important it is for us today. Speech, and words, create. What they create, is up to us.

Thank you for reading.

Tatuayinepu

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Em hotep everyone!

I'd like to begin a regular discussion thread of Ancient Egyptian wisdom texts. These have had a lot of meaning for me in my practice before and after becoming a member of Kemetic Orthodoxy, and have greatly enlarged my understanding of not only  Ancient Egyptian thought but on the understanding of the principle of Ma'at.

One of my favorites is from The Husia, by Maulana Karenga, in the Book of Kheti:

"Be skilled in speech so that you will succeed. The tongue of the man is his sword and effective speech is stronger than all fighting. None can overcome the skillful. A wise person is a school for the nobles and those who are aware of his knowledge do not attack him. No evil takes place when he is near. Truth comes to him in its essential form, shaped in the sayings of the ancestors."

This speaks of so many things for me. It tells me that the wise person begins from within, in silence, where they listen to their heart, to their truth. The wise person learns how to pay attention here, first; and the wise person listens to their ancestors. It also tells me that the wise person learns about themselves, and learns self mastery.

"Skillful" means practicing discernment on when it is best to speak, and when it is best to observe silence. It means being able to have awareness of what people are saying-and not saying-and whether their words and behavior seem to be in agreement. It means having good listening skills, really hearing what others are saying, not merely listening with the ears while forming a one's own comments. It means being patient while others speak, even if one disagrees and wants to "correct" the speaker. It also means pausing before one speaks and choosing words carefully.

"The tongue of a man is his sword"is powerful. I thought the use of the word "sword" meaningful, as it can be so many things. In this context it refers to truth, to wisdom, to experience, to the wise person who uses it to uphold Ma'at. It can also apply to one that uses their tongue, as sword, to ruthlessly cut others down in the hopes of "winning", but the extract also clearly implies that one that does that will not be victorious.

It also brings to mind what Netjer have taught me: Truth in Ma'at is a guide, a shield, and a refuge; and if I seek to uphold Ma'at in all things, I will live well and have a good death.

That's enough for me, for now. I'd love to hear from anyone that cares to comment, and hope that this thread catches on.

Thank you for reading.

Tatuayinepu




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[PUBLIC] Welcome! / Re: Em Hotep!
« on: May 14, 2018, 02:47:52 am »
Em hotep and a hearty welcome!

Tatuayinepu

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[PUBLIC] Netjer (Our Gods & Goddesses) / Re: Mother's Day
« on: May 13, 2018, 03:20:10 pm »
Em hotep

I gave an offering of good rum to Sekhmet. She's a Beloved of mine, and I consider Her to be my Mother. I don't know Her well, but I'm learning and She's patient with me.

Most of all, and this is what really matters to me, is that She is real. I do have a family of origin mother, but we don't speak for many reasons, one of them being that she isn't real. She just wants my money.

Sekhmet is real. There's nothing disingenuous with Her. If She has something to say, She does. None of the fake speech or lies. She is real, and Her Love, fierce.

Tatuayinepu


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[PUBLIC] Welcome! / Re: Hello
« on: May 09, 2018, 02:16:06 am »
Em hotep and welcome back!

Tatuayinepu

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[PUBLIC] Welcome! / Re: Hi again!
« on: May 07, 2018, 03:02:52 am »
Em hotep Makaroth,

I hope you're enjoying the class. Look forward to seeing you around!

Tatuayinepu

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[PUBLIC] Welcome! / Re: Hello Again
« on: May 07, 2018, 02:58:48 am »
Em hotep and pleased to meet you!

Tatuayinepu

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Em hotep Makaroth!

I LOVE that book! Jan Assmann is one of my all time favorite authors!

Thank you for sharing. Would've added that to the post above but it got eaten (?)

Tatuayinepu

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Yinepu/Wepwawet, since I was 18 (a few years ago LOL), he was present when I died and came back. I started working with Him in earnest in 2010/11 when He started reaching out in my dreams. He has taught me many, many things; saved my life twice, and been there for me in so many ways since then.

A few years ago, He told me to "Go with Heru", which I did, and I'm learning just how much of an influence He has had on my life from the beginning. He, and Sekhmet.

Sekhmet came to me in 2012, via a dream, telling me "I can help you". I worked with Her on and off since then...and am now learning how much both She and Heru Sa Aset have acted in tandem throughout my life.

While Yinepu/Wepwawet has had His roles and His overriding influence, after I got my RPD last month, I've begun to see how Sekhmet and Heru Sa Aset have been right there all along. It is as if Yinepu has orchestrated a complex continuing series of events where He is the overriding main character with Sekhmet and Heru Sa Aset having supporting roles at first, unknown to me largely, but then coming in with many more influences than I realized.

Tatuayinepu

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"I do not wrong myself, I do not do isfet"
Em hotep Tatuatinepu!

Actually the word here is not isfet but iry bin. According to Hemet's notes, bin is an evil action or thought which can be translated as bad or negative. Isfet is actually a state of being opposed to Ma'at. A quite different concept indeed! Bin could lead to isfet which according to Hemet is what this purification may be trying to prevent.

Mindfulness is an excellent practice as is used in many psychotherapies for the treatment of depression and anxiety. A very predominant practice in Mahayana forms of Buddhism, but seems to be crossing over into mainstream society as well.

Thank you for the distinction in the terms, I was working from the Ancient Egyptian Prayer book and a few other translations...that did not make that.

Always better to define the terms, instead of assuming or categorizing things into one.

Tatuayinepu

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Em hotep all,

Further thoughts on this Purification came to me after talking with a few other people about this.

"I do not wrong myself, I do not do isfet"

We've already discussed making mistakes as wronging ourselves, and that Nefertum heka which is so beautiful :) 

I also wondered about negative self talk counting as a wrong against ourselves, and the "disguises" referred to in the Nefertum heka that prevent us from seeing ourselves as Netjer see us, are to a greater or lesser extent, created by our own self talk?

I know that my earliest memories of myself as a child, had the beginnings of negative self talk. This continued throughout my life, although I am aware enough these days to be able to spot and to change that self talk.

At least for me, the habit and the content of negative self talk was learned behavior; behavior habits that were formed before I realized what they were and how damaging they could be.

Fortunately, even though those years of negative self talk did create "disguises" in how I learned to see myself, I am not a "damaged soul". Like the lotus that emerges from the muck, I can emerge from the particular yuck of negative self talk and the disguises it has created, and the mental habits from years of repetition.

One thing that I do, is the practice of being present in the moment. This practice is not necessarily KO, I learned it from the study of Tibetan Buddhism. Basically what it is, is focusing on just this present moment in time, which according to the Tibetan Buddhists, is all we have; not the past or the future (although our future is determined to a greater or lesser extent on what we do in the present).

I can, however, make a comparison to the Zep Tepi, which we have available to us in Kemetic Orthodox. We can, every day, recreate ourselves. If we break down a day to a number of hours, and an hour to minutes, we can similarly have "mini" Zep Tepy's.

This is applicable to being present in the moment, if I am able to slow myself down enough, if I am able to cultivate the habit of being present and able to catch the negative talk springing up and use this "gap" to reframe the negativity in words that are less caustic/untrue/nasty.

I am nowhere near 100% successful with this, but knowing I have the potentiality available and that what I tell myself can, and does, change how I see myself to something that is more in line with how Netjer see me, is very powerful.

Knowing that I am loved by Them, that this isn't conditional, and that I am like the lotus, makes all the difference. Knowing that I can recreate myself, any time, whether that means several times in an hour for bad days, or a few times on a good day, is really awesome. I'm no longer stuck in the idea that, because I've made mistakes I'm destined to continue to make them.

Destiny, to me, is variable.

Hope this made sense!

Tatuayinepu


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Purification #33
Hail Nefertem, coming forth from Huwt-ka-Ptah, I do not wrong myself; I do not do evil (things).

What does it mean by wronging oneself? Earlier in purification #13, we discussed not eating out hearts, but this purification is different. We have just went through a litany of misdeeds and now we come to this one. What do we make of it? How does it affect us at this point in the purifications?

I do not wrong myself….

How many times have we done something we regretted? How many times have we done something that has harmed us physically, psychologically, and emotionally? Harm can leave scars, some very visible and others more difficult to see. How can we recover from these?

I believe this purification could possibly give an answer in the form of Ptah and Sekhmet’s son, Nefertem. Nefertem is more than the god of perfumes and flowers. He is an embodiment of the Tem, the Self-Created One. He emerges from the lotus which represents something very beautiful. Lotuses are born in the murk and mud. They begin life in very nasty surroundings, covered in filth. But as they grow, they reach for the light until finally bursting forth from the murky waters they reside in. They emerge as a beautiful pristine flower, fragrant and stunning.

How often have I saw myself like this? Sometimes I feel bombarded with all my past mistakes. But Nerferum reveals to me that no matter what filth and dirt I have to crawl through, I can wah it away. I can feel his purification envelop me. I too am something beautiful that is filled with the moment of Zep-tepi. I can begin anew.

"Nefertem, Lily of the Sun,
Take all that disguises my true self and wash it clean from my face.
Wash my eyes O Beautiful Youth with your healing hands and help me to see myself as You see me.
For I am pure, my ka is pure, and I am a child of Netjer."

Em hotep Raheri!

This is beautiful heka, and a wonderful topic.

"I do not wrong myself"

I read this, and think upon a few things that I've read in Karenga's "Ma'at: The Moral Ideal in Ancient Egypt".

The first is a reference to human dignity in the Instructions for Merikare, "snn ntr" or imago dei conception, specifically, "snnw.f pw pri.w m h'w.f, or "they are his images and come from his body". From that, I would consider committing wrong against one's self as any thoughts or actions that are against one's human dignity. Lying, speaking out of turn, speaking hastily, speaking in a way that hurts others, and any number of behaviors that harm the self with or without harming others.

I am continuously working on recognizing my own human dignity and self worth, from a lifetime of feeling like I didn't have much of either. I have made bad decisions and many mistakes in my life, due in part to not recognizing these. I used to think that I had to somehow "earn" basic human dignity and "achieve" self worth. If I am reading the above correctly, though, I believe it suggests an inherent sense of human dignity, because we are children of Netjer. That isn't an achievement, it is a state of being, something that we didn't ask for. It is a precious gift. It reflects love, and causes me to ponder the love They have for us. I further believe there's a connection to our awareness of inherent human dignity within ourselves, and the concepts of self worth and self love.

Which leads me to another favorite topic within Karenga's book: A discussion on the essential goodness of human nature, which describes in detail the differences between the moral offenses in Kemetic ethical literature, and the Judeo Christian concept of "sin". The Augustinian concept of sin as a "disease of the soul", or a soiled and wounded soul does not have its roots in Kemetic ethical principles, instead, it is moral failure. According to Frankfort, it is foolishness and aberration which brings unhappiness because of the resulting disturbance with the harmonious integration with the existing world. Frankfort further states that it is lack of insight or lack of self restraint being at the root of man's misfortunes, not a basic corruption. One is capable of self transcendence by self understanding in community and self transformation rather than by grace. It is not by grace, but by following Ma'at, that is posed as the key to moral grounding and human flourishing (Karenga)

Karenga further elaborates on this by describing Ma'at as the grounds for the ontological unity between Creator and humans, and what is required is to recognize one's true nature and to act accordingly, as Ra. If Ma'at is the spiritual/ethical dimension of humans, the critical constitutive element of being human, then Ma'at must be cultivated by righteous thought, emotion, speech, and conduct in order for each human to realize his or her potential fully(Karenga).

He further states that learning Ma'at requires an openness of self to both instruction and change and involves hearing, acting, attentiveness, and putting into practice.

For me, this means a lot. This means I'm not inherently flawed as a human being, and that when I make mistakes it is due to ignorance of what the correct behavior is. That flies in the face of Judeo Christian tenets which refer to "original sin", which states that Man is "fallen", "prone to sin", and damaged beyond recall. I can work to perfect my understanding and I can act in ways that reflect a better understanding. Through right thoughts and right action, I can unlearn teachings that I interpreted to mean that something was inherently wrong with me that I couldn't fix.

I always have a chance to do better, and the heka of Nefertum does not have a time limit, or tell us that anyone that has made more than say, 2000, mistakes is un redeemable.

Through learning and practice, I can grow in awareness of my true nature, its inherent divinity, and its inherent worth. The more I am aware of it, the less likely I am to do something that is counter to it; thusly, I am less likely to commit a wrong against myself.

Thank you Raheri for the post, and for helping me to take another look inside one of my favorite books about Ma'at.

Tatuayinepu

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[PUBLIC] Prayer Requests / Re: Just Trying to Re-Connect with Wepwawet
« on: April 28, 2018, 05:27:38 pm »
To briefly answer your question: Yes, Wepwawet is both a solar and phallic god. The solar connections are talked about quite a bit on my per-Sabu website under the section for Wepwawet-Re. And the phallic/creative aspects can be seen in epithets like “the powerful phallus” and “the great begetter.” Plus, quite frequently he is shown to be an intact male jackal. A number of stela from “the Salakhana Trove”, which was found in his cult center figure pregnant and/or nursing female jackals with puppies and so may also speak to these generative aspects.

If you ever have any specific questions about him, please feel free to send me a PM. :)

Em hotep!

Way back when, Bezenwepwy and the Per Sabu site really helped me with the level of knowledge, quality knowledge, that is present there. There was a dearth of quality information about Wepwawet, Yinepu, and jackal deities when They started coming into my dreams and re-entering my life in 2010/11.

I am deeply grateful for, and can personally vouch for, the quality of her information and assistance via the site. It definitely helped me connect with both Wepwawet and Yinepu, and to maintain that connection over the past 8 years.

Tatuayinepu

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[PUBLIC] Prayer Requests / Re: Doing a Mama Sekhmet Thing
« on: April 27, 2018, 11:27:30 pm »
Em hotep, friends.

So after a year and a half of trying to slog it out and probably doing myself more harm than good, something happened today regarding work which was just the final straw for me. (In and of itself it would have been more annoying than anything, but coming at the trailing end of everything this company's done to me and the suspicious timing of my having told my boss something about my mental health earlier this week in an attempt to, you know, actually feel safe at work . . . welp. I was livid.)

And then, finally like a Sekhmet kid, I realized I should, uh, do something. At the very least do the best I can to ensure that my employer is held accountable for their actions. Even if I end up quitting--I don't want a graceful exit.

Today, after being completely called off of work for no warranted reason ("rain" that didn't come until five o' clock this evening, among other things that don't make sense), I decided to take the first steps in filing a claim with the EEOC against my employer. I've filled out most of the online forms, including the secondary ones, scheduled an in-person get-together with an EEOC representative (which is just to determine if there's even a case) and asked a few (former) coworkers if they'd be on board to support my claims of the umpteen number of ways HR's screwed me over in regards to (not) accommodating my visual disability (including denying me promotion in a very passive-aggressive way), (not) working to even understand what clinically documented chronic PTSD can mean for me under X conditions (so let's fix X conditions, please?), and being trans (to quote the head of HR: "Why should you get to be special and break the rules [regarding HR's own self-imposed-but-then-rescinded method of self-identifying with pins, of all things]? Everyone identifies as something and [in response to the notion of gender dysphoria I'd brought up; unedited quote] everyone has a mental problem of some sort."

Blah blah blah.

The EEOC folks might well say that I have no case. Or maybe the company fires back with whatever choice stuff they have which I can't argue against. Who knows? But at least it's something. I don't even know what the end result would be. I'll still work there, until I can find something else, because Insurance and A Paycheck (Two bits!) . . . but I don't want to be silent anymore.

Prayers that ma'at prevails would be deeply appreciated. <3

Thank you all, friends.

Senebty,
Gezausenu.

Prayers that Ma'at prevails above all. I have you in my daily prayers with Yinepu that an avenue will open up for you to see the environment improve and that you're treated fairly. 

I will also speak with Heru Sa Aset and Sekhmet on your behalf, that your employer will be held accountable for its lousy treatment of you.

*offers hugs* Good on you for standing up and not being silent in the face of abuse. It is a very hard thing to do.

Remember, you are not alone.

Tatuayinepu

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[PUBLIC] Prayer Requests / Re: For My Father (again)
« on: April 25, 2018, 01:33:18 pm »
Oh dear. Prayers for a positive outcome for your father.

Tatuayinepu

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