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Author Topic: Terminal despair - forbidden prayers  (Read 1617 times)

Terminal despair - forbidden prayers
« on: September 20, 2014, 02:44:50 pm »
I can't fight anymore.
As I mentioned before, I suffer with paranoid schizophrenia and recurrent psychotic depression.
I pray every day to Set to kill my mother (since she has tumors), and to let me then kill myself, because my mother is the only thing in the world I love and really care about.
I can't stop suicidal thoughts...
Is it sinful, or whatever to pray to the One Whose Name is Not To Be Spoken of?
I see Him as the last option, since He is a pyre evil...


I don't want eternal life, I want to be destroyed in the Hall of Judgement.
« Last Edit: September 20, 2014, 02:50:45 pm by Setesh »
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Dua Netjer!
Dua Set!

Offline Darytessekhmet

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Re: Terminal despair - forbidden prayers
« Reply #1 on: September 20, 2014, 04:34:35 pm »
Hotep Setesh *henu*

I'm really sorry you are feeling this way.  Is there any way I can help?  Is there a counselor or doctor you can go to to help you work through the thoughts and overcome them?  Please know we are here to support you.  I'll keep you in my prayers and ask Sekhmet to help you and your mother.  
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Offline Rev. Ma'atnofret

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Re: Terminal despair - forbidden prayers
« Reply #2 on: September 20, 2014, 05:00:56 pm »
Hotep Setesh

Please, please reach out to a local counselor for help. Netjer is with you and I pray they guide you. I pray Sekhmet and many others aid your mother through her process. Please seek a grief counselor, they can also help you better understand this process. Sekhmet bless and guide you. We are here for you
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Re: Terminal despair - forbidden prayers
« Reply #3 on: September 20, 2014, 06:06:01 pm »
Setesh, please take care of yourself and call your doctor immediately.  I am going to lock this thread -- not because we don't care, but because there is nothing we can do to help you.  Netjer never wants you to hurt yourself.  Please, please, please call your doctor.
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