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Author Topic: Retaking beginners class after years of absence  (Read 2679 times)

Offline Khentesh

  • Shemsu
  • Country: se
Retaking beginners class after years of absence
« on: July 09, 2015, 08:15:47 am »
Em Hotep everyone!

It is so good to be back in my spiritual home, where I belong!

I came to the House of Netjer in November 2008, took the Beginner's class and chose to become a Shemsu when presented with the opportunity to go through the Rite of Parent Divination.
I loved being here, I enjoyed the wonderful friendships and the community, the fellowship chats and the worship.

But I fell away in 2010, not because of anything to do with Netjer or the faith, but due to depression and severe anxiety,  which has been present in my life since as long as I can remember.
In 2010, after an eight year long battle against the governmental authority which in Sweden is appointed to issue social security rights to those in need, my disabled husband lost his right to have an assistant, and with that decision, I lost my job as his handicap assistant. 
I plummeted into a darkness of the soul that I have been struggling with since.

I lost my faith, not because of the Gods not being there, but because I was too weak to care about anything else than trying to breathe, trying to force myself to get up in the morning and trying to get through the day by counting seconds.

I went to CBT therapy, started taking antidepressants and anti anxiety medicine, and I continued to fight for my husband's right to an assistant.

I became an unwilling atheist, and did not feel anything else but a grey void.
Sure, the medicine helped me cope with the most urgent need to stay alive and fight, but the energy I had before was gone.

In February this year, I could no longer stand being an atheist, and decided that I wanted nothing else than to come back to my spiritual home.

After I had decided to take up my relationship with Netjer, I began feeling better, and things started to fall into place, sadly due to my mother, whom I helped move in next to me, because of her old age and her failing health.

As time went on, and I did everything I could to help her, I realised that she was only using me, and one day, I finally realised that she is a narcissist, and all the pieces of the puzzle fell into place.

The reason for my depression and anxiety, my general anxiety disorder and my low self worth, was my upbringing in a dysfunctional home with a controlling and selfish mother and an avoiding and enabling father, a situation much graver than I had ever thought possible.
And here I was, having believed that my depression was caused by a disruption in routine!

So, here I am again, still not back in my former potential,  but healing and wanting to live again and contribute to the fellowship and the faith.

But along the way, I lost much of the knowledge that I learned when I enrolled in the beginner's class.

So I asked Hemet if I could retake it, and She gave Her approval.

I know that the class is about to begin very soon, and I am totally lost to what to do and how to begin.
I cannot remember how to access the chats, and I would like to join in the lessons sent out to email.
But I have no clue what to do.

This has been a long post, and I hope that I have posted it in the correct place.
If not, I apologise and will move it to the correct section.

Senebty

Khentesh-ib-em-Sekhmet





 
« Last Edit: July 09, 2015, 08:45:21 am by Khentesh »
Senebty

// Khentesh-ib-em-Sekhmet
(Sekhmet is Delighted)

Sat Sekhmet-Hethert
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Offline A'Aqytsekhmet

  • Rev. A'aqyt - Ordained Clergy
  • Country: us
Re: Retaking beginners class after years of absence
« Reply #1 on: July 09, 2015, 09:05:50 am »
Em hotep and welcome home :3
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Offline Ra'awyserqet

  • W'ab Priest - Lay Clergy
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Re: Retaking beginners class after years of absence
« Reply #2 on: July 09, 2015, 09:41:34 am »
Em hotep and welcome home. You've been through a lot, but you still came out of it with the desire to heal. I'd call that a battle won.
(They/them)

Sat Serqet-Aset her Nisut-bity Hekatawy | (aus), meryt Sekhmet-Mut, Yinepu-Wepwawet, Heru-wer, her Hethert-Nut-as-Nehmet-Awai.

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Offline Tanebet

  • Rev Astrid - Ordained Clergy, Semer-Wati
  • Country: 00
Re: Retaking beginners class after years of absence
« Reply #3 on: July 09, 2015, 11:19:03 am »
Em Hotep Khentesh

Welcome back!

there is a special mailing list for the Beginner Class called Zep Tepi.
You will receive all Beginner Class related information via this list.
This list will become active next week


Senebty
Tanebet
« Last Edit: July 09, 2015, 12:30:30 pm by Tanebet »
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This is what I was born to: to live, to love, to know, to change and embrace the infinite.
Normandi Ellis: "Awakening Osiris"

Offline Khentesh

  • Shemsu
  • Country: se
Re: Retaking beginners class after years of absence
« Reply #4 on: July 09, 2015, 12:02:47 pm »
Em Hotep and THANK YOU!

Just want to say thank you for your answers to my post.
I am so eager to retake the class and start over.
That is truly Zep Tepi!
Love you all so much!

Senebty

Khentesh-ib-em-Sekhmet
Senebty

// Khentesh-ib-em-Sekhmet
(Sekhmet is Delighted)

Sat Sekhmet-Hethert
Meryt Bast-Mut her Wesir

Offline Awibemhethert

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Re: Retaking beginners class after years of absence
« Reply #5 on: July 09, 2015, 02:46:09 pm »
Welcome home.


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Offline Tatjasobekra

  • Divined Remetj
  • Country: us
Re: Retaking beginners class after years of absence
« Reply #6 on: July 09, 2015, 04:00:56 pm »
Em hotep. Welcome back!
Sat Sobek-Ra
Meryt Wadjet, Djehuty, Bast her Aset-Serqet

Mudang (korean shaman-priest) ; God Divination, Kut Ceremony, Prayerwork by appointment.
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Offline Shezatwepwawet

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Re: Retaking beginners class after years of absence
« Reply #7 on: July 09, 2015, 04:46:43 pm »
Em hotep, welcome back, och hej! I'm so glad to see you return.
Senebty,
Zat (She who makes Sekhmet laugh)
Sau apprentice | Fedw | The Library | zat@kemet.org

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Offline Senushemi

  • Forum Moderator (Beginners' Forums)
  • Shemsu-Ankh
  • Country: us
Re: Retaking beginners class after years of absence
« Reply #8 on: July 09, 2015, 05:12:56 pm »
Em hotep and welcome back!  It's great to see you.  :-)
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Proud waver of the "senu" flag.
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Offline Ankhetbast

  • Shemsu-Ankh
  • Country: us
Re: Retaking beginners class after years of absence
« Reply #9 on: July 11, 2015, 01:31:41 pm »
Em hotep and welcome back!
~~~~Ankhetbast~~~~

Sat Bast her Hekatawy I (AUS), Meryt Serqet, Yinepu her HetHert

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